i feel tired. but i am too tired to know what makes me tired. and i am tired hearing myself saying that i am tired.


i dont feel happy. i dont know why. nothing wrong happened. i just feel un-right. a few more days december will arrive and the nearer time brings me there the more unsafe i feel, the more unsatistfied i feel.


i have afterall done many things to satisfy myself, or rather i have done many things that i am proud of, but in the end of the day, it doesnt feels right. talk about self satistfaction. what really satisty me? more important what will satisfy the people around me? i dont know. i dont know...